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art drawing

more drawing

Doing some work on my large drawing today, the one based on ripples in water.

I’ve added egg tempera paint, made with egg yolk, pigment and water – a most magical substance with a beautiful surface and shine. Just mixing it is such a pleasure!

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photography

sprouting

Sprouting acorn, seen woods growing on Pentremawr Colliery site, 2 days ago.

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reflection Uncategorized

good enough

This is about publishing. Putting the work out there.

Good enough. Not good enough. Invisible.

And now I realise that ‘not good enough’ is good enough.
(It is good enough because it is good enough for now, for today. It is good enough provided that there is generosity of intention, and provided that there is integrity).

‘Invisible’ is the option that is not an option, that is not good enough.

I still feel that in some senses, hiding is part of living a dignified life. Part of the transformation of living – the part that happens in the cocoon. There will always be the need to protect a solitude, the need for a privacy.

It is when hiding becomes an unexamined habit, a denial of transformation and of growth, that hiding starts to do damage to the fabric – to the fabric of oneself, and because that fabric is woven in, to the whole fabic.

This is because there is no such thing as passive. Passive is an action. Just like ignorance is a position. We may wish we had the option, we may actually have the option (temporarily), but in the long run, we do not have the option. To not feel it. To withdraw indefinitely. To sucede. To never trust. To never love. To never give.

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art drawing

on drawing

I’ve been sitting at my desk for a lot of today, finding words about hope, and continuing with the reading that I am doing about the work of Joseph Beuys.

Sitting at my desk with my back to the large drawing I’ve started and not giving it any thought. It is behind me because I had nailed the paper to the only possible wall, right behind my desk. Charcoal dust all over the floor and the soles of my feet, all over the dog and the piles of books. Its not lovely…

And, turning around, it has to be said that overall this drawing is not pleasing to me. I am speaking about this here, in order to be honest with myself, and to express to myself, in front of you, that sometimes things look very difficult and messy, and there is no certainty at all that they will mean or be anything useful. And this is difficult. One becomes invested in a work, in a certain outcome. Or worse, having embarked on something without being able to see a way clear, one starts to lose faith that there is a way clear, or that the journey is justified at all.

I have no idea where I am going with this drawing. There are some things that are good about it, an energy and a rhythm in places. I am starting to imagine ways that it will become material that I can turn into a book, or perhaps the inside of a box. But I also feel certain that it will need more work first. More attention. And the possibility remains that it might never be useful at all.

Which reminds me that in the course of my research today, I did read Joseph Beuys in conversation on the process of creating, saying something that I found interesting about quality, and mistakes:

“So the criteria for something …. as to its quality, can again really only be discussed in direct relation to something, by circling around it a thousand times, looking at it and trying different things out. Above all, it becomes interesting when you’ve completed something and think it’s perfect; and then suddenly see that in fact it’s the stupidest thing you’ve ever done. And then you have to rework it, in other words, correct it, and that’s particularly difficult. But it also has the enormous advantage that only now can you draw something out of it which never occurred to you as a possibility before, because it wasn’t at all visible. The mistake one makes in the first attempt can turn out to be an extraordinary gift as far as the work is concerned….. One learns an enormous amount from mistakes in particular, as long as one doesn’t tire too easily and say: Oh no, it’s no good – I’ll leave it and start something new. If one says: This mistake is something that I’m not just going to leave as it is, but I’ll make something of this mistake, which is much better than I originally envisaged…”

(From the book ‘What is Art’, Conversation with Joseph Beuys. Edited with essays by Volker Harlan, 2004).

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art painting

painting a pumpkin

Painting a pumpkin today with the lovely Gwendraeth Arts Lab on-line group.

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reflection Uncategorized

ripples

Imagining today the things that we do – rippling outwards in intersecting circles.

A video that I made yesterday, walking out in the rain:

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art artists books

artists’ book

Working today on a folding book for my collaborative book project with Suzie Ross.

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art artists books

four scrolls

A short video, still working with the watercolour scroll forms.

I heard a palliative care doctor talking once, she said that there are four things that people very often need to say before departing.

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art

a book artist

I do appreciate that you are reading and following my blog!

I’ve updated the page on my website ‘about‘. I wanted to be able to offer clarity – about what I do, what I am offering to you here.

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art painting

scroll forms, watercolour

Making maquettes of scroll forms in watercolour this evening – working from memories of making the short film yesterday.